My 2010 :)

Before I recap my 2010, let me just give you a background of what my 2009 looked like. Maybe then you'd appreciate it when I say that despite all my musings here, 2010 was a lot better. Way way better. A million times better. Just a shoutout to God for redeeming this year for me. :)

The year 2009 was a very difficult year---with me resigning from my first job, with me breaking up with my long-time boyfriend, with me losing a job opportunity abroad---a year when everything had gone wrong! This year ended with me being jobless and boyfriendless and almost penniless and prideless.

Then 2010 came. I had hopes that this was going to be a year of rebuilding dreams and reconnecting with some people who made impact in my life. Thankfully, this year started promisingly---with me getting a new job that allowed me to travel much albeit locally. As a result, I've been to places in the Philippines I never thought I'd go to. I've met diverse people, made few friends here and there. I've earned miles from PAL! Yey! :) I'm thankful to God for giving me this job, but somehow, I know deep in my heart, that this is not yet the job I've been called for. There's a big piece missing and I will try to look for this one in 2011, God permits.

All throughout the year, I struggled with bad habits that God patiently exposed in the circumstances and conflicts I encountered. I realized that until I learned the lesson God wants me to learn, I would never graduate from the same set of trials. I also realized that God is so in love with me, He would never ever leave me, even If most of the times, I'm the most unloveable creature on earth!

On the best side of this year, I received the greatest blessing in my 28-year existence on this planet! I received the Gift of Love from God, a love for keeps, exactly the kind that I prayed for since June 2010. God truly answers prayers.

Apart from receiving the Gift of Love, I thank God this year for the Gift of Salvation. I now know for sure where He is leading me. He has been leading me to Christian life all along. And I think I am ready for this. By His Grace, I know I am.

As I close this chapter of my life, I couldn't be more thankful for God... for leading me to the best life I could possibly have, for the trials that prepared me for the one He gave me to love, for the gentle glimpses of how great life can be when He is in my life, at the core center of it, breathing and living for it.

The best is certainly yet to come.