Today is my 28th birthday! Yikes, I'm old! I just got home from my simple birthday dinner and know that I should blog about today ASAP. For it's already 10:30 PM. I don't wanna miss out an entry on my special day although nothing really special happened during the day. The truth is: I am quite melancholic today.:( And it showed in the photos taken two hours ago so I don't really wanna post them except for this one:
Those were my few guests (minus my brother and my nephew Paul who went to the car already) which may very well explain why I'm sad today. For one, neither one of my parents are here today (my Papa's in Casiguran and my Mama's in HK). My oldest brother is also working abroad. Although all of them called me early today to say their greetings, something is still missing. I don't know why I haven't learned to get used to this set-up in my family (my Mama's been an OFW since I was eight years old).
Or perhaps, I couldn't help but compare this year's birthday to my 27th when more family members were present (my Papa included) and we spent two precious days at the beach. And I didn't have to work.
Well, anyway, I didn't invite much, just few of friends whom I know would be available, although sad to say (again) that most of them didn't make it. Why oh why??? Hmmm... I guess this is another reality you have to deal with when you're growing older or nearing your 30s. Either you classify your friends to (a) workaholics; (b) night-shift/midshift workers; and (c) already married and have more important things to do.
Moving on... I think despite today's sadness, I should gently pat myself on the back for knowing who I treasure. Because today, I honestly did not ponder on things that I don't have (work abroad, savings, err boyfriend, etc.) Yes, there are plenty of things that I miss out on life, that I wish I have, that I get insecured about.
But still, I am thankful... for friends who remembered (through FB and SMS), for my new job, for family who stick through my mood swings, for talents that I've been gifted with, for being a recipient to God's amazing love and grace for 28 years. Most of the time, I just really need to practice having a grateful heart.
Thank you and I'm sorry Lord for today. Next year will be better right?
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