25 April 2016

Love Letters to Isaiah Patrick

On my quest to write my dear son a love letter each month on his first year, I come up with my "Love Letters to Zeya Series." We named our son Isaiah Patrick and we fondly call him Zeya.  Each month, I'll try my best to pen my heart's contents as his dad and I celebrate and thank the Lord for the gift of him in our lives. 

Isaiah Patrick's 1st Month


My dearest Isaiah Patrick,

My little baby boy, I have barely slept since you were born and already, you are one month old! Oh bubba, how you've made me and your dad so happy is beyond words. But how you made me extremely sleepless and exhausted is beyond words too. :) Nonetheless, you made me so in love with you I felt like I can conquer the world with just a 3-hour sleep in 24 hours!

Before you were born, I dreamt of doing your newborn photoshoot complete with props. But I got totally caught up with motherhood the photoshoot was forgotten. Your first four weeks have gone by in a haze of your incessant cries, of your wet and dirty nappies, of your daddy hurdling through his most trying times in his career to date, of me desperately trying to increase my milk supply, of me barely keeping myself alive amidst the sleep deprivation, of me crying and asking my mama and other friends how to do this motherhood thing right. It's been a very tough first month with you anak (my child). Very tough. I hate to admit it but you're a crier and a persistent one at that! 

But you know what? The past four weeks have stretched my heart and my faith. My heart has grown exponentially wide to contain this overwhelming love I have for you. Since day one, every time I look at your cute, dimply little face, I tear up and smile at the same time. Because of pure joy. Because of the answered prayer that you are. Because of God's faithfulness to me and your dad.

So although it's been very tough baby Zeya, I've also never been so in love, so persevering and so protective, all at the same time. You are loved my baby boy. So much loved. :)

Love lots,
Mommy Lai
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Photos from your first month celebration with your Lola (Grandma) Delia who came to Ireland for you: 


Family photo where I looked sleepless! I haven't put on moisturiser to my face for a month now because I always wanted to do check-to-cheek with you. Your dad was able to go home from work earlier than expected because bubba, he couldn't miss this day for the world!


With your Lola Delia; you showed your dimple because I was trying hard to make you smile.


With the 3 generations that we are:


With me:


With your dad, your lookalike:


Happy first month Zeya, please be better with your crying na! :)