10th M♥nth

Some 10 things for the 10th

10 Things in the Past 10 months

1. Philippines/Singapore/Ireland.
2. Phone calls/Skype/YMs.
3. Airports/Airplanes/Tickets.
4. Flowers and Chocolates.
5. Leila and Raoul.
6. Time Difference.
7. CCF.
8. Prayers.
9. Moo!!!
10. Day 33/40 - Relationship Principles of Jesus by Tom Holladay

10 Things I Love About You

1. You love God and you take your faith walk seriously. (gazillion pogi points)
2. You sing songs to wake me up. 
3. You buy me flowers. :)
4. You remember small details about me.
5. You like photography, travels and books.
6. You appreciate my unique beauty (uy meron pala?! hahaha).
7. You accept my flaws and scars, the bad and the ugly sides.
8. You know when to pamper me like a princess, when to rebuke me like a child.
9. You listen to my nonsense ramblings, you laugh at my corniest jokes.
10. You care for my dreams, from the silliest to the grand ones.

Because of You....

1. I now know why it never worked with anyone else. 
2. I'm now watching CNN and National Geographics.
3. I cooked! (waaaah!)
4. I've forced myself to wake up early.
5. I've been trying to live simply.
6. I've learned to prioritize and value what matters.
7. I learned not to get stuck with my mistakes.
8. I'm no longer as afraid to fail.
9. I learned about CCF... and my faith journey was never the same AND MOST IMPORTANTLY...
10. I know that God indeed loves me! :) (and you can forget about everything I've written except this one.)

Oh Good God, where shall I start?

It's been over a month and I still can't believe that Lando and I are engaged. It's s still so surreal! Oh yes folks, let me just say repeat it again in all caps: WE ARE ENGAGED. Why do I feel giddy every time I say these 3 words that changed my life forever? (*_*)

Please understand, that I'm still going through the just-engaged syndrome, if there's such a thing. Hahaha! I'm happy, giddy, dreamy and unbelievably excited! The downside is, I'm completely overwhelmed with all the plethora of resources and the million-mile-long wedding preps list that I find myself doing this and that without really accomplishing anything!

For example, I woke up this morning and found myself googling "Wedding venues in Tagaytay", flipping wedding magazine pages, browsing brochures I looted in the two wedding expos I've been and discussing with fiance over skype our wedding budget! At least the budget was all set so as not to shock as quotations have already started piling up!

These photos will tell you the story:

I'm praying to God to give us wisdom and put HIM first in making our decision: a.k.a choosing suppliers and eventually shelling out hard-earned savings, ay savings lang pala ni fiance! Hahaha!

After all, our wedding is going to be God's story. Because He led us into this moment, right here, right now, preparing for the big big day when we will finally become one!

So, let's start... Where shall we start? :)

Fears for all things new

Here I am at lunch break in an unfamiliar concrete jungle. You zoom in and you see me in my cube typing away words that have been running my mind since Day 1, the day when I took the plunge in my new job, my so-called leap of faith a month ago.

Today is the end of my second week and yet, I still find myself getting overwhelmed with all the jargons and acronyms I see everywhere, and worst, have to get used to or memorize. I feel dumb most of the day for navigating a system that is completely alien to me. I get shy with new voices and faces. I was born introvert and I haven’t figured out how to be Ms. Extro without looking like an idiot or a phony or both. I smile alright then stay silent.

It’s quite hard describing a new phase of life or in my case, a new job. If this is called growing up a.k.a. leaving your comfort zone, then I must deal bravely with my fears for all things new:  workstation, local number, accounting system, company jargons and the hardest, always the hardest---new faces, new bosses.

I hate to say this but I've been feeling so alone for most of the 8 hours in the past two weeks. But even so, I don't want to grumble. In the first place, I asked this job from God and He allowed for things to happen. Yesterday, I lead the devotional in my bible study group about God's Immensity. I know He is miraculously BIG and I just have to keep on trusting and putting my security in Him, not on anything, not even on this job. I know that I should just cast and surrender all my fears to my BIG BIG GOD who owns the universe and who, by His perfect will, can realign everything to give me help and grace that I need. My BIG GOD is bigger than my fears, surely! :)

Now, I shall go back to work.